A Shinobi Approaches

Kai was nervous, he turned his head to the left and looked down,
he let out a weak smile... "I'm supposed to be the strong one,
I can't even stop shaking... this is so new to me..."

He turned his head to the right and noticed Shiro on his lap...
He got excited, his heart beat was faster and most importantly...
He could feel it... growing...

Kai was not only experiancing love for Shiro... but physical attraction.

"It's not new to me...", Shiro replied, "... but maybe... a little. I like you, Kai. Very much."
Shiro blushed. He had been with men and boys before, despite his age, so he knew what to do.
Technically. But these emotions were completely new to him.
Sitting so close to Kai he easily noticed the other's arousal, feeling similarly himself.
Shiro smiled gently, he wanted Kai to relax and to like him even more when they did this.
Watching the other's face, Shiro let his right index and middle finger trace down from Kai's shoulder to just below his belly button, then moved them along his right hip bone and up his back. It was good to feel Kai's skin react to his touch and not only his skin but his whole body. This was a new experience to Shiro, too.

Kai's skin tingled to Shiro's touch... He smiled... he was finally coming to peace with the idea and noticed Shiro's arrousal... Kai looked at it, quite devotedly... "That's pretty big..." he said softly looking into Shiro's eyes... He seemed to be mesmorized by his deepness, he could see the feelings in his eyes... He leaned in for another kiss... "I know this is fast but..." Kai whispered slowly... "I think, I think I love you..."

Shiro giggled and blushed when Kai said something rather nice about his best piece. But what really got his attention were the words that followed. Shiro smiled and kissed Kai back, slowly moving his hand back down to Kai's belly - and further down to touch his erection. Shiro was very gentle, not sure if Kai liked being touched by him. Rubbing himself against Kai made Shiro moan softly, while his free hand had finally found Kai's, holding it tight. "I want to be very close to you", Shiro whispered. Not only physical, but emotional closeness.

Kai was very nervous... Not only was he vulnerable, he was also in public... He took Shiro's hand... "Not here..." Kai was a little distressed they had made quite a scene, Kai didn't want to be caught like that... "It's too fast..." Kai stated... He didn't like how out of hands things had gotten.

Shiro seemed a little disappointed but he knew Kai was right.
It was hard to hold back now but the longer they continued the hared it would - literally - get.
"Can we go home?", he asked. He seemed a little afraid that if he waited too long Kai would reconsider and decide not to want him anymore.

Kai gulped... He didn't want to go that far... He felt vulnerable, it was almost as if they had reversed roles in a matter of hours, Kai was confident and eager, whereas Shiro was shy and timid.... Now Shiro was eager and confident to move forward...

"Erm I- I suppose" Kai said quietly and unsure...

Shiro kissed Kai softly, reassuringly.
"Please", he whispered and stood up, dragging Kai to his feet.
He wanted him so badly it was probably written on his face.
It would be hard to walk home like this, both of them aroused.
But Shiro wanted to get there as soon as possible.
Hugging Kai tightly Shiro smiled but he felt nervous.
Maybe Kai would start thinking now, deciding he did not want things to go further?
Why would he want to be with Shiro anyways?
Biting his lip nervously Shiro tried to calm himself down.
There was no use in thinking that way now. He'd have to wait and find out.
"Please, let's go home", he whispered, the usual insecurity back in his voice.

Kai was so confused... His emotions had gotten the better of him...
He was pulled to his feet and began walking... Was this what he wanted...
At that brief moment of when kissed Shiro, all he could think was yes...
But now...?! Now he was completely unsure... He didn't want to hurt Shiro...
He didn't know if he even wanted Shiro... He looked back to when he last
felt like this... It was after he saw a female Kunoichi called Erika...

He looked back to that moment... Erika was a beautiful young ninja...
she was about half a year younger than him... They met at the Hoshikages
office when they were paired together to do a mission...
They were inseperable since that point... That is, until she left with her Sensei,
Kai was left heart-broken... Everyone he got close to always let him down...
If she hadn't of left... Nothing would of been this confusing...

Kai got changed slowly... Trapped in his own thoughts and emotions...
He feared for what he had done...

Shiro hurried to get his clothes back on, waiting for Kai.
He was not going to push Kai to do something he would not like...
So he had to make sure Kai would like to be with him.
It was the first time Shiro felt like this for anyone and he did not want this feeling to go away.
Especially not this soon.

They made their way to the reception slowly... Kai was trying to stall,
"Going so soon" The receptionist said... "I hope everything was to your liking?"
"Oh it was great" Kai said, "Really relaxed, but I'm tired so we should be
heading home" Kai smiled... "If I could get all my weapons back..."
"Oh, Yes of course..." She began to stockpile the weapons on the Desk, and
one by one Kai removed each one... He wanted to stall... Until he knew exactly
what to do about Shiro...

Shiro was impatient, he picked up the knifes and carelessly put them into his pocket.
As much as he wanted to ask Kai to hurry he did not want to annoy the elder.
Coughing a little so Kai knew he wanted to go, Shiro slowly moved towards the exit.

Kai smiled at the receptionist and headed over to the door...
The walk home was quiet and awkward, Kai was worried that he
had hurt Shiro's feelings and almost broke him... He knew he
had to do something and he still did feel something for Shiro...
Kai stopped and pulled Shiro towards him, showing him how he still
felt he pulled him closer so their bodies were so close they could
feel each other... Kai closed his eyes and kissed Shiro tenderly...

He opened his eyes, smiled and pulled away, his arousal was slightly
back as he noticed where his hands were on Shiro.

Shiro was surprised when Kai stopped and pulled him over.
They were in the middle of the street, everyone could see them.
Nonetheless, Shiro leaned against Kai slightly, answering the kiss.
So Kai did feel something for him.
If possible Shiro had wanted to get even closer to him right where they were standing.

Kai noticed something in the background, he quickly dropped his hands.
Was it?! It was! Kai couldnt believe what he was seeing, he suddenly
forgot about Shiro and began to run.

It had been a while but she was finally back, she smelled the air,
it was beautiful, she looked at her Sensei... and smiled, then she looked to the
right... In the distance she could see Kai running.
"Kai-kun!! How are you?!" she shouted

In almost an instant Kai was next to her
"I'll leave you two alone" her Sensei said...
"Bye Sensei, I'll catch up with you tonight!"
"I'm amazing now that you're here!" Kai hugged Erika tightly
"I can't believe you're here! Did the war end?! What happened?!
You have to tell me everything!" he said

"Alright, let's go to your place... Also...
Who is that kid behind you?

Kai's face dropped... He had totally forgot about him... He turned around and looked
at the boy.

When Kai was suddenly gone, Shiro was confused for a second.
Turning around to watch where Kai was going his face dropped.
He was running towards a girl. And he seemed happy. And they hugged.
Shiro was jealous but he tried to tell himself that this did not mean anything.
A sad, questioning look on his face Shiro looked at Kai, waiting for the elder to remember him.
When Kai finally turned to look at Shiro, the boy looked away, staring at his feet.

Kai looked at Shiro, then Erika... He didn't know what to say...
"Shiro, I.... Erika erm" Kai was confused and didn't know what to say...

Erika raised her hand and laughed, she put out her hand to Shiro
My name is Erika, and I presume you're Kai's new man... She winked
Kai was shocked "But how did you?!"
Erika laughed again "It's not hard to see the two of you sucking
face in the middle of the street... However the looks on your faces suggests...
things arnt going as the day was planned..."

"Let's all go back to my house... I'll start to explain everything there..."

Shiro silently shook her hand. He did not say anything he was too confused.
When they were back at home, Shiro snuggled up on the lounger, watching the other two.
He was shy and insecure, as he did not know the girl.
Why was she here? Kai and him had wanted to be alone.
Shiro seemed very sad, wrapping his arms around his knees and waiting.

In the room it was quiet, awkward and tense...
"I'll say it then... Kai and I used to date, almost a year ago,
Well the jist of it is, I had to end it, with him because I was going with my
Sensei to a war as a neutral medic unit, there was 7 of us... Thats not
important.... So I had to leave and there was a chance that I could of
died, So I had to break up with him..." Erika said.

"She left pretty soon after that... Almost a year later and you appeared...
I'm sorry Shiro..." Kai said softly... Kai looked at both Shiro and Erika...
"and now you're both here..."

Erika smiled... "and now you're two lovers are here... and you
don't know who to choose..." she finished.

Shiro did not want to cry, he really did not want to but his chin and lower lip were trembling already. Why should Kai choose him? He had known that girl for so much longer and she had been first to be with him. Also, she was a girl. It was just normal he would choose her. Shiro hated her. So much. So very much. Why did she come back and took Kai away from him? She had no right to do that.

Erika walked towards Shiro and placed her hand on his shoulder,
She looked at him and said... "I know you must hate me... but I forgive you..."
It was true, she did forgive him because she could tell he loved Kai just as
much as she did...

Kai remained quiet, he didn't know what to say... Until he blurted out...
"I love you... both..." Kai looked down at the floor, it felt hard to say that,
It seemed wrong to love two people at the same time... "I'm Sorry..."

She... what? Who was she to forgive him? He had done nothing!
She was the one who had come back without having been called for!
Shiro jumped up and stormed off to the bedroom.
Slamming the door behind him, Shiro climbed onto Kai's back, hiding beneath his covers.
Now that he was alone he started sobbing, completely hidden below the blanket.
Kai's scent was all around him but this time it did not comfort the boy but only made matters worse.

When Shiro stormed off he shouted "Shiro! Wait!!", it was too late...
He sighed... "What should I do Erika..." He looked to her...
Erika smiled... "Go to him... He needs you..."
She put her arm around him "I'm a big girl, I can handle myself...
He needs you more than I do right now..."

Kai sighed, she was right and wrong at the same time... He wanted
Shiro, not Erika... At the same time he wanted Erika, not Shiro...

He got up and walked into the bedroom... He layed on the bed
besides Shiro... he put his arm around Shiro... "I'm sorry..."
he whispered to him...

Erika, was a little sad... She was hoping Kai would let her jump
back into his arms and everything would be as it was... Even though
she wanted to take the High Road, she loved Kai... More than this Kid!
"I'll see you tommorow" she mouthed the words to Kai from across the room.
With that she head to her Sensei's house... She closed the door behind her...
and burst into tears and ran home.

Shiro could not stop sobbing, though he was embarrassed Kai saw him like that.
"I don't want her to be here... she's going to take you away from me...", he cried, hiccuping.
He knew it was going to happen. What could a boy like him do about it?
"I don't want you to leave me... I want you to be with me, only with me", he continued.
Turning around below the blanket, Shiro outstretched his arms to draw Kai close.
"Please don't leave me, Kai."

Kai sighed quietly... "She's gone..." he whispered... He didn't know what to say... He loved them both... It was hard to decide... He allowed himself to be drawn close, he just held him close to him... "I am with you... Shhh... Go to sleep... We'll sort everything out in the morning..."